Dec 29, 2015

2015. The Year of Ashes and Phoenixes..

Dear 2015. 

Goodbye.
You indeed managed to surprise me in EVERY way possible. 

It all started on the last day of 2014 by accepting a last-minute invitation to come to Prague to the theatre with a new friend that wanted to say thanks. Having in mind what I wrote here on the blog only two days before that "how we should all do something unexpected", I simply went. I took this totally un-selfie :) picture when travelling there ready to leave the old year behind and welcome the new one with hope and smile. I still remember how on a way to the theatre I was listening to "how great Prague is" and that I should leave Bratislava, too. I laughed at the friend that night a lot..


And then THE LIFE itself LAUGHED AT ME BACK.

Just by one turning-around I bumped into someone very special. And sooner than expected, with some risk taken and curiosity, too, the HEART started to beat differently and nobody could stop it. It just went on with the invisible flow, beating stronger and stronger. LOVE. What else. And as it is usually in Life, when you are dealing with the most crucial issues, they happen to come all at once. Maybe it is a version of someone's mercy, you have the despair served to its fullest and if you do not get crazy out of it, you might actually end up either stronger or not realising you got crazy :)


So with all of this floating happiness combined with craziness, things were messing up elsewhere. The urgency to fix the living for me and my sister Veronika in Bratislava arose suddenly as we could no longer stay at the place we liked. 4 months of my life and some grey hair were the bonus and the cost of the new place. This time it is OURS at least. :) With Veronika we moved out and we moved in. And I knew it was time for me to move even further on. So I did. I turned into Alice in Wonderland, constantly visiting new places, questioning everything, trying everything and I haven't indeed stopped wondering from that time on.. 


I quit my safe job and risked. Thanks to someone's infinite patience and understanding that good timing is sometimes better than human plans, the right job waited for me despite I firstly chose something else. Now, it is Love again. I am helping to build a company and the pride and meaning coming with it cannot be described in words. It is easy to build a start-up with lots of investors but it is more rewarding when you choose freedom instead. You invest more, your losses hurt deeply, but it gives you the purpose and motivation to work hard. And when you combine it with the right people that trust each other you suddenly catch yourself feeling at work like somewhere where you belong. Place, where you can play and learn, work and grow, where even the fighting is allowed when you take it with ease and respect. :)


But in between my long battle of choosing the right job, the most radical thing was happening. I was moving out again. This time to Prague. More packing and unpacking but this time spiced up with lots and lots of love and support in various forms and shapes, sparkle and fun, meeting new people, being in new places, exploring new tastes and smells, correcting my beliefs and values, watching the sun and moon moving constantly while weather started to change slowly. I let myself go wild and childish, boldly facing the fear of the unknown. Did I loose something? Of course. But I hope I gained much more. Experience for sure and some wisdom hopefully. Maybe it is my destiny to be moving out and moving in and moving on, adapting to changes, testing new waters and changing colours accordingly.. It is funny that at the end of this madness I realised I actually fulfilled unconsciously what I had written down on paper for myself a year ago.

HOME IS WHERE YOUR HEART IS.  KEEP THE HEARTBEAT LOUD AND SOUND, LISTEN TO IT, AND YOU WILL BE IN THE RIGHT PLACE AT THE RIGHT TIME ALWAYS. 


I am glad and relieved that the year 2015 is coming to its end. I faced a thunderstorm (caused by myself partially, too :) and for sure I did things I would never say I would do a year ago. But for a glimpse of a second I actually feel similarly as the last year. Peaceful in mind and thankful for every day of this year. No matter what the taste of it was. I am in the right place at the right time and the rest will come along the way. 


I have new hopes, dreams and wishes for the new year but I also respect the unknown. Because this year confirmed it itself again. You can have lots of plans to work on but it is essential to be flexible and attentive to what really matters. Because THAT FORCE is changing it all.

                                         MAKE LOVE HAPPEN, 
                   DREAM WILD AND BE BRAVE IN ACTIONS. 
This is my wish for all of you for THE NEW YEAR of 2016. 

FOR WE NEVER KNOW WHAT IS COMING NEXT.


Dec 17, 2015

When I am 30.. I am 30..

Oh dear. :)

Entering this charming number came with sort of mixed feelings. I heard that the days of my twenties are actually behind me and approaching is the age of new .. everything! I have to hereby confess that from the age of 7 I started to read COSMOPOLITANS (my dad used to buy them for my mom and I still know some issues by heart) with the real and firing urge to be ALREADY 30 if not 40. You know, "carrying"!!! designer business suits, buying luxurious handbags and so on.. (all the things I tried to experience a bit with the exception of high heels, maybe I will start growing up a bit later in this area  - loo lazy or too picky if you want to wear only Jimmy Choo's or Manolo's :)

BUT, did I have poor childhood because of that? Or hard life? I do not think so! :) It was kind of dreamy, full of books and people and hobbies. I had luxury of time. I knew I have to work hard if I want to go up and be successful. Compared with all the challenges kids have nowadays I have never hunted my dreams as radically and without boundaries as some of the younger girls do nowadays, so I guess I managed everything pretty fine and without a shame.. :)

As you might think I should say something sophisticated once I am 30, I just want to share this now.
Funny facts are coming with the age. While my family is expecting me to settle down, I more and more feel like this little girl that I know for ages talking to herself (BUT AN EXPERIENCED ONE NOW OF COURSE!) is going WILDER AND WILDER WITH TIME. In her dreams, ideas, plans. I FEEL THAT NOW IS THE TIME TO DO CRAZY THINGS AND CRAZY INVESTMENTS, NOW IS ALSO TIME NOT TO REGRET ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS GAIN SOMETHING OUT OF IT. (hopefully, not weight :)


SO at my AGE OF 30.
I want some things for MYSELF. 
I want a MAN for me.
I want my TIME for me to manage (Doesn't matter if I dream, write, work, walk or sleep)
I want my HOME to feel at home. (If you travel for 15 years, you understand)
I want my CAREER to be MINE. 
I want to be treated NICELY. 
BY ALL. 

BUT.

I also want to SHARE ME MORE.
I want to LEARN MORE, 
I want to BUILD something non-material and ESTABLISH something great.
I want to CONTRIBUTE to society with MORE SIGNIFICANCE. 
I want to HELP MORE. 
AND CARE MORE.
(YES I SAID IT, I KNOW. :)
(Accepting any kind of invitations to help, but I have to remind you, I have a cleaning lady myself! :)

I will describe at the end of the year what has changed during these crazy 12 months but the outcome of it is that I haven't seen my friends - AND IT MEANS YOU - FOR AGES!!! I was being tossed in constant flow of change, trying to adapt to all the challenges that were coming my way so intensely. And if there weren't by any luck none, I just needed to be myself, rest, read, think, dream, plan, wonder, explore Prague - my new hometown. I do not want to apologise but to explain..  I needed some time to settle down, to settle my whole life elsewhere and build a new home, too. 

BUT. 
THIS TIME IS OVER. 

I WANT TO MEET YOU!!!
I WANT TO LISTEN TO YOUR STORIES. 
MAYBE SHARE MINE. :)

LET'S GET TOGETHER!

YOU'LL FIND ME BETWEEN BRATISLAVA AND PRAGUE.
JUST LET ME KNOW WHAT SUITS YOU MORE AND I AM ALL YOURS!!!

K.